you're just been born my dear blog :))
dr dulu nk tulis but yeah how stupid am i to even forgot my own password for the last blog. lol. haha
u know what, everytime i get into my own moment of thinking, i just though about what to write in my blog, but as i was saying i forgot the password. so my own though just saving in my draft inside my head hehe
as i was getting through my high school year in jess, i realised how i'd grown. (it's freaking me out sometimes but it just part of learning in life :)
this is out of blue but its true the fact that as you got older your surrounding will be different. there's no acception in friends too.
yes it bumps me that as i got older people could leave you even though you sometimes felt apologetic if you did something wrong which you kinda try to figure out what is going wrong.
OH HAHAHAHA THIS IS FUNNY. WHENEVER I TRIED TO WRITE MY OWN FEELING ABOUT LIFE, THEN I TRIED TO READ IT AGAIN I SIMPLY CAN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING.. LIKE "HUH?" HAHAHA WITH A FROWN FACE WITH ONE EYEBROW UP. YOU KNOW.
bukan tried to be lame or ape but its true. even my dad said it as well
"bile as you achieve higher, you'll feel more lonely as friends will leave you behind"
thats what my dad said, well he is a type of guy that value his friends :)) (being sweet started to creep me out!!)
and wanna know what my mum said
"youll never feel lonely if you keep yourself buzy" but yeah its true as well it shows how she hates wasting time and value her life.
but the thing is you always need moral support from someone. your family, or friends can help you but only momentarily.
tp nk thu satu bende tak and im so thankful to Allah.
when you feel needed in moral support, no one can gives you one accept yourself. you need to change the way you think, the way you feel and tried to save your life emotionally.
and yeah sometimes it reaches limit you know like i can't pikir baik all the time like i can't buat bende selalu just untuk satisfy kan diri
but you know what...
JUST KEEP PRAYING
JUST KEEP DOA
AND you only need to believe Allah will save you. Allah will help you. then,, you will feel a lot calmer and hati tenang jee!!! best kan!
but in order to feel that you need to make your own effort to dekatkan diri kepada Allah ( thruthfully, bukan berniat nk mengajar just nk beri peringatan utk sesama kite to all and most to my self) it takes time..
"Allah takkan ubah nasib sesuatu kaum melainkan mereka pilih untuk berubah dengan sendiri"
im not that baik and i know im not that intelligent either (i tried to beat top student at least huhu)
and im not that sempurna
thats all :))
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| me and my twin hehe how cute blerh |
