now i understand

yes i maybe say that i don't understand why some people don't blame themselves when they misbehave or something happened to them.
now.. i understand....

some people are fill with negativity and some are positivity.  you just got to born with it. i must say i was born not to care. and that is why i rarely blame others for what happen. but as i got older, i see how society influence us in many different ways. we may get negative along the way or the other way round. but ppl who is having a hard time because of someone, it's rude for me to just say FORGIVE. because i know it's not easy. eventho you want to forgive, you tend to remember back what he or she did, then you will start to boil up.

thus, it's rude for me to not understand people who couldn't open to society because society have influence them in a negative way. they tend to keep barrier so that they won't be hurt again. i know it's not easy, to be living like that when human's love is what you want the most. this is just a for protection to yourself. i understand. it is not easy. society aren't helping.

some of you may built a trauma or anxiety along the way. but just so you know, it is not your fault. don't blame yourself for what happened. this context must be a contrary from what i wrote previously but i just learn that not blaming yourself is the best way for people who experience too much burden upon themselves that make them so reluctant to continue living.

to those people, i just want to give a hug and pet on the back while saying "YOU DID ENOUGH DEAR, DO WHAT YOU THINK BEST FOR YOU"

BECAUSE THAT IS THE ONLY THINK I COULD GIVE.

when a person were given a task that he or she dont have the strength to continue surviving, that's when he or she lose patient and need support from others.

let me land you guys a word of comfort. "i do understand, and i know it's not easy but keep fighting because you worth a million than you think you are."

if i cant comfort you enough. go to Allah, and tell Him everything. Almighty God knows our pain my dear. seriously.

"you won't know EXACTLY how someone's feeling unless it is given the task upon you"